Saturday, 28 June 2008
Everywhere around me, love seems to sing.
It's not my imagination, but in NJC, in my class, many seem to be attached or at least close to, having found someone to call their own.
Whilst I am happy for them, my heart aches within.
I can't begrudge them their happiness, their joy.
It seemed that a short while ago I would be within their ranks.
Now I stand alone.
I am more or less over the past, long having given up hope of reconciling or anything like that.
But can I help it when I am constantly exposed to such events?
There are people, who say after breaking up that they hate couples.
Indeed I agree.
When you see a couple embracing, the girl's head on his shoulder, the smiles on their faces, you can't help but turn your head away, unwilling to remember the (once-happy) memories it triggers within you.
I am constantly reminded of my singlehood whenever its late, and my handphone stays strangely silent.
No more good night messages.
No more talks late into the night.
Logically, I know that A's are a mere four months plus away. After that, comes NS.
It is much more sensible to stay single, stay uncommited, stay free.
But I can't help myself from wishing.
From dreaming.
Love has indeed swept up everyone around me.
I guess cupid's arrow has passed wide of me this time.
Like the eye of the hurricane,
I am the boulder that remains unmoved,
watching the wind sweep up everything around me in a cacophony of love and laughter.