Monday, 30 June 2008
Today was a bad day.
Operating on only 2 hours of sleep and watching soccer before school is not a good for your mental health.
I felt like a total zombie throughout all the lessons today.
Anyway, today I saw my ex back in school.
Neither of us acknowledged each other's presence.
Thinking about it, its actually a really sad thing.
One moment you're so close, and the next you treat the other like a total stranger.
What did all the shared moments and memories amount to? Nothing.
I had an epiphany today.
Why ruin a great friendship by turning it into a relationship?
When a relationship ends, both sides inevitably start to hate each other.
There is no such thing as a mutual break-up. Ever.
Someone will always get hurt.
So why start a relationship at all?
You have a good rapport, you get along, you like all the same things.
All of these does not amount to shit.
We each want a relationship for one of these reasons:
Peer Pressure(all our friends are attached and we're lonely)
Curiousity
Physical Desire and Need
Social Status(Being attached actually increases your social standing)
Loneliness

Just spare a moment to think about it.
None of these are really good reasons.
A beautiful friendship, forced into an awkward relationship, may leave one party screwed up horribly.
Maybe I'm being cynical.
Maybe I'm being bitter.
But right now, I can't see the point of entering a relationship.
I have A's coming up, practically everyday I end at 5++.
I can't even commit.
Rather than lose someone wonderful by attempting to pull them closer, I would rather keep them at an arm's length apart.
Forgive me.
Give me some time to consider.